Reflections thus far

Alright, so I've been here almost three weeks now...and it feels like an eternity! Home is far away but it's ok. I'm feeling detached from America. Not in a bad way, as in, I feel safe and at home here. It's definitely helpful having Pam and Courtney around to keep things familiar. But I've managed to branch out, meet other people in the program and random Spaniards as well. I'll admit, I had my doubts, that I'd come here and not take any initiative of trying new things. But now with all these extensive travel plans and new experiences, I realize that I am well-equipped for an adventurous lifestyle. Of course it's easier when you're 6,000 miles away from your regular responsiblities... but whatever, that's why I must take advantage of every free-wheeling moment I have.

I've come to love this city. Yes, the fact that everything closes from 3-5 sucks ass. But it's a small price to pay in exchange for autonomy and the opportunity to live in a big city. Again, I thought I wouldn't fare well, having grown accustomed to the suburbs. But in exchange for public transportation, loud construction, and multiple grocery store trips in a week, I get the following:

*Seeing old couples that take afternoon walks together
*Lots of things to do: a new bar to hit up, a museum, or even another country!
*Anonymity in the street. It's surprisingly comforting at times.
*Mom-and-Pop stores lining every block
*Everything within walking distance

There is so much more I could say. I'm sure as the months wear on I might become more disillusioned, more homesick. But for now I'm in high spirits. It's all good in the barrio!

Carolyn Hax says, on taking risks: "The only way to avoid the risk of awkwardness is to say nothing - and assume the risk of regret." It could not apply more to my life, in terms of relationships, my plans for the future, my friends...maybe it's boneheaded of me to be cautiously optimistic, but I believe things always work out as they should - so one should never hold back from virtually anything. It's not Fate; I don't believe in Fate. I believe people are capable of choosing their life goals, whether it's beneficial or hurtful to them. How easy it is to attain a goal is another story, that yes, I do think ultimately comes down to luck, privilege, and personal determination. Where THESE things come from, I guess would be everyone's #1 question as soon as they die. Too bad we don't exactly have that option, do we?

Anyway, I digress. Life is good right now, couldn't ask for more. More memories and pictures to come!